As I've Grown. (12.3.15)

As I’ve grown,
I’ve witnessed countless tragedies.

Whether it was guns or bombs,

In person or on T.V.

The world is a better place,

This much is true.
Less deaths thanks to disease,

Less things to kill you.

As I’ve grown,

I’ve come to disagree.

The mathematicians must not see

The world I see.

Graphs say the world is getting better.

Crime is going down,

The ocean is going up,
The shoreline is getting wetter.

But as I’ve grown.

The only things I see,

Are wars on drugs,

On terror,

On me.

From the time I was born,

In 1997,

I can’t count the number of

Funeral processions.

As I’ve grown,
I’ve seen people cry.
Watching millions of innocents die.

I ask the world,

Now that I’m 18,
What changes are left unseen.

Now that I’m grown,

I need to know,
Just where the future will go.

Feel Alone. (10.24.14)

Do you feel alone?

You’re scared and breathless,

If they looked they’d see tears.

If they looked they’d see scars.

You’ve been running and your heart stops.

You’re lungs can’t inflate anymore, they’ve popped.

How many ghosts did you make along the way?

How many times did you choose to run away?

Animated hand’s and wild eyes,

They’re discussing your demise.

They know you’re pointless, and you do too.

So you just let it happen to you.

Your face feels flush, a stinging blush

And they won’t look at you.

You implode.

A time bomb, been ticking since the day you were born.

You push away,

You got attached this time

You don’t want to commit to this crime.

As they walk away you beg them

“Take what’s mine.”

This time you want them to,

Leave you behind.

To carry a little piece of you.